Heads, it is!

After all the farewells why does one have to still say a final goodbye to a departing pal? Why do we still hope for something which is miraculously out of our reach? Why is it important to say something to someone when we already convey it through our actions? Isn’t wishful thinking a crime in this age of hopelessness and impossibility?


These are some of the questions going through my head recently. Why and why nots. Do’s and don’t’s! Life is complex? Or we make it complex through our thought process? In this age of gadgets when every product boasts of simplifying stuff why do we end up complicating the simple things. Or is it the part of the human tendency to test one’s own resolve. To reach to the limit, to outstretch, to outperform and to out shine others. To be the knight in the shining armor, to be the great one, the one that everyone looks up to.


If one chooses to opt for the latter then at what cost? Study accounts and you can further complicate this by adding the opportunity cost factor, the cost of selecting one alternative over another. Some do it at the expense of their dreams, some at the cost of their families and some by putting themselves at stake. So it boils down to the choices that we make. The choice to say that good bye at the airport, the choice of reaching for that impossible dream, choice to remain wishful and the choice of calling heads over tails.


May be I am not wise but I hope to make the right choice, the right call, And guess what? I have already made that choice, the hope of hitting the nail on its head, the sensation of achieving the impossible, the liberty of opting for hope against gloom, love against hate and dream against giving up!

Because I luv wishful thinking! And I luv my choices in life :)

Ciao! Aaich.

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My First Good Love Letter

I saw this movie named 'Waiting for forever' recently. The following is the excerpt from the movie which i luved it and I thought its worth sharing on my blog :)

Dear Emma,

Those two words, ‘Dear Emma’ take me away to way another time when we use to write to each other after mom and dad died. I used to tell you about my new friends and my new life. And you used to tell me about the grand time my mom and dad were having in heaven. Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything. And the main thing that I used to believe was that I would be with you forever. 

Forever. The reason it is taking me so long to write you is that I have seen that I have been a fool. I have spent my life fooling myself. 

Every letter I’ve ever written to you has been a love letter. How could they have been anything else? I can see now that all of them, except this one, were bad love letters.

Bad love letters beg for love back. Good love letters ask for nothing. This, I’m pleased to announce, is my first good love letter to you. Because there is nothing more for you to do. You already have done everything. I have enough of you in my head to last forever. So please don’t ever worry about me. I’m peachy! I really am. I have everything. 

If i had one wish, it would be that your life brings you a taste of happiness that you have brought to me. That you could feel what it’s like to love.

Your friend forever,

Will

N.B: Text and image courtesy the official movie fanpage on facebook.

The story of Me and You!

You came the other day and said that you want me to return whatever I have given it to you. I said you cannot but you challenged. I cannot confront back but neither can I deny your request.

Here is the list. Some of them I have to give, some you and some collectively we need to have them back.

The first time I saw you, I was awe struck and mesmerized. To date I don’t get that feeling when I see someone else, please return me that feel.

On the lanes of London you said that you love the royal palace and we went there. Your curiosity is still hovering in Buckingham palace. I want you to take back that curiosity that makes London so special.

In the streets of Paris you told me about your love for perfumes. The shop that we visited and the perfumes you tested. The fragrance of those test runs are still in the air of those shops. They wait to go back with you.

In Murree you got excited by snow and made snow balls and threw at me. Those flakes are still stuck in the moment. I want you to get them out of their limelight.

In Sydney on New Year ’s Eve you were super excited. We celebrated the arrival of the new millennium together at the Sydney Harbor. You lit extinguishers and fireworks. It’s been 11 years and I never had a new year since then. I want you to return me my new year.

In Los Angeles we went to the theater to watch that crappy horror movie. I had shivers down my spine while you laughed it off. To date your laughs and my shivers remain there. I want you to take them back to their deserved place.

In South Africa your love for islands took us to Capetown. I never saw you that excited in my life. Your excitement is still the talk of Capetown. I want you to take the excitement back from the city.

For a long time your bedtime calls were only highlight of my time till you said that you don’t longer want to talk me. I have not slept with peace since the day you abandoned them. I want you to give me back my sleep.

On that October night in Islamabad you looked into my eyes and said is this a dream? I said no and gave you my dreams. From that day and onwards my dreams are with you. I want you to give me back my share of dreams.

In Lahore soon after our kaboolhai, kabool hai you hugged me. Your warmth gave me comfort in that chilly evening. That warmth is still with me, I want to return it to you.

On the cold morning in Moscow you got fascinated by seeing smoke coming out with every breath that you took. That smoke of your breath is still Moscows most prized possession. I want you to take back that gift from them.

Sitting in dunkin donuts, Karachi your lipstick got struck to the coffee mug. That impression is still there. I want you to take it back.

On my birthday we went to the beach in Dubai and walked miles on that sunny May afternoon. Despite numerous waves passing over our footsteps they refused to wash away. I want you to take those magical steps back from Dubai which I believe is the reason of some many people getting excited to that crazy dessert.

The day we parted you slapped me. I was teary eyed and vowed never to smile back again. To date I have not smiled. I want you to give me back my smile.

The last time we met you asked me to get out of your life forever and never to return. I ported out but my heart refused to follow me. I want you to return me my heart.

I am not sure if you can give me what I want or take what I want to give. I never requested you anything but this is my first and only request to you.

 In all these moments with you I did not realize that I never had a life and it was your presence that meant a life to me. I just request you to give me back my life please!

Luv!

Aaich!!!

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Do the due!

It is like treading on the same path over and over again. Knowing that the route is filled with thorns, bushes, barbs and nails. They will rupture, injure, cut, wound and bruise you. Knowing you will fall and crash into pieces. But still you opt not to change the pathway. You end up bursting yourself. Day in day out and weeks flyby but you decide not to change. At the end of this battle you again collect yourself, pump air into a body that is already so damaged that the air refuses to stay and hopelessly aim for another shot wishfully thinking that the lady luck may perhaps finally smile.

Why?? Too scared, childish, unsure or confused?? Why does one don’t let it go? So much for the new person that you inspire to be. Nahee? Is it the child inside that is refusing to grow up? or the bond that refuses to break? What is in this suffering?  Seems like a chess game where the player is not only shrewd but also very clinical and cunning. Why does he/she move and say 'checkmate', signal the end, shut the door and run away. Why are you dragging the innocent, the one who is not really at fault, the one who just happens to be at the right place at a very wrong time.

I request, beg and plead to deliver that knockout blow. Just go ahead and kick in hard. I am sure this short term impact will be way better than a long term effect. I urge you to be ruthless, unkind and selfish. Because if you won’t then i don’t see an end. I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.

It’s easy here. I can do it, but i chose not to. I can opt to win but not at the expense of your loss! So it’s you who have to do it!

and for a change, JUST DO IT!

Aaich!!

Violet enough?

Where do you draw the line? How do you know that your ‘this is it’ moment has arrived? When all is said and done there are resonances in your mind waiting to be unleashed, how do you channelize them or how you keep them buried inside your head?

For long you wait for something to happen and when it finally does why don’t you run and embrace it? Why you just hold back and hope it should have never happened in the first place?

Do good guys always lose? Do trophies go to winners only! Have you ever tested someone only to see if they will pass with flying colors? Have you competed someone by being on their side? Have you ever trashed someone because you want to hear back that they won’t go?

For something that is bound to be factual isn’t it amazing how much excuses reality is made of?  Why, why not, ifs, buts, coulds and shoulds all have no values when that moment arrives. You don’t think nor seek advice, you simply jump off the cliff. If you are lucky to reach the ground safely, great, else you already know that its indigo, indigoing, indigone!

Adieu, Aaich!

Harry meets 'H'

It was long overdue. Quite a while when Harry last met with ‘H’. A lot of water had passed under the bridge. Harry was a changed man and ‘H’ was happy at taking the back seat. After all for 26 years ‘H’ waited for Harry to take on the baton to the next stage in the evolution.


They shared the routine sentiments of meeting after a long time. Harry was nervous and embarrassed as if he has done something wrong while ‘H’ still had the ultimate charming smile, plus, not for a moment did he pass a rude remark to make Harry uncomfortable.

Harry: I missed you a lot, ‘H’ (Harry is teary eyed)
‘H’: Awww (‘H’ trying to mellow down the emotions)


So wats up? Harry inquires!
Nothing much, the usual ‘H’ response.


Wat have you been upto? (‘H’ inquires)
Harry: A lot of stuff actually. New workplace, new college and a lot of new things.

Great! You like continuous change, replies ‘H’.
Um, yeah but not now! I think I need to slow down. This is not I thought of. (Harry is getting senti)


‘H’: so wat did you think of?
Harry: I don’t know.


‘H’: but still?
Harry: Can you come back and take the lead?


H: Why? This change is something that you wanted really badly.
Harry: Yeah, but I don’t think I need it now.


H: Wat you don’t require?
Harry: I am clueless. I don’t know


H: Have you heard this? I've slowed down and taken a backseat and I'm watching other people's lives zoom pass while I stand motionless in time. It's pretty amazing when you view the world from a different angle. Not everything is good in life, but not everything is bad either. I've learnt that I cannot change the world, and the world will not change for me. (‘H’ shares a quote)


Harry: Your luv for these is still there :)
H: Yeah! :)


H: Why don’t you apply this quote to yourself? You just need to change the perspective.
Harry: What should I do? In a conflict within self who wins, H?


H: See that the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love you, well, that's just fabulous. Naah?


Harry: Yeah you are right!
H: Let it go! Be who you really want to be! Stop sweating on the small stuff.

Harry: Can the thing between the two get back to what it was?
H: For me it never changed. It’s still the same :)


Harry: Can I say something? And you know this, right?!
H: Wat?
Harry: That I…….
H: Yeah! You don’t need to say it.


Harry: Thanks for everything!
H: You don’t have to.


Harry: I will catch you later then?
H: Sure thing!

*Hugs* and both depart!

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‘Harry’ and ‘H’ are fictitious characters. One represents the mind (logical) and other the heart (emotional). Aaich leaves at your discretion as to who is the logical and who is the emotional in this blog.

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Retrospect!

There comes a time when you have to reflect,

when you've to think of all that seemed right,

and all that went wrong

The bets you made,

the battles you fought,

the friends you had,

and the ones you lost

Life comes with a silver spoon,

but it takes with a broken hand

It shows you a direction,

but the path is yours to take.

Lets see where are you heading my friend!

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You!

This post is for you!

You belong to the fraternity that is not meant to be strong but in what context people have this observation is beyond me.

Your beaming face and a splendid aura is the first thing that grabs the attention. Others may wonder that there may be nothing fancy about it. A lot of people have this craft and what is this thing to write about? Put into the equation the numerous leg pullers that you fight daily and a norm that you bout against every minute and the significance of this sight multiplies exponentially.

Fun loving, young, exuberant are understatements when it comes to you. Amidst all the adversities you know how to keep the balance. Workplace, home or institute every place gives you ample reasons to be more strong, resilient and spirited.

Your survival mechanism of not only handling crisis but little disasters of everyday life is truly extraordinary. You do break down occasionally but who would not? I am convinced that you will never fit in because you are born to stand out!

Your life's good. Don't sadden yourself by what you won't have later, celebrate what you have now. Your present is too precious to be tainted by regrets of past or stresses of future. Live like there is no tomorrow, love like you've never been hurt. As for the past, obviously you couldn't have worked any harder, given it more, loved more, cared more, spent more hours I don't know the list goes on. Looking back you might feel like you put your heart out too quickly... blame it on the season... it was after all a spring of hope and only a fool wouldn't fall in love.

Sometimes when you don't know where you're headed, is it not ok to just follow your heart?? It takes courage to be happy... be brave for yourself. Don't try to figure things out, there is no right way or wrong way. Hope springs and miracles do happen and I can promise that your life will soon change for the better that even you wont believe it.

With the powers vested upon me by myself, I hereby declare that you are not a person, you are a phenomenon!

Respect, Aaich.

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Adieu, Mesh!

She will be leaving soon! She had to in any case. She was here for her masters and after successfully doing that and in between also tying knots with an amazing man it was always a matter of when and when not!

 

I had the opportunity of sharing the cost accounting class with her. At that time she was just another student in the class and you don’t interact with the whole lot. Right? Fast forward a few months later when she became a mutual friend courtesy of another friend of mine, that I really got to know who this gurl is :)

It wasn’t all really full fun to start off with but it became better and better as the time passed. We had some amazing times watching movies and hanging out. Plus who would forget the amazing tag team we enjoyed in the soccer match against JZ and Sam. O’ boy we did give them a run for their money that evening :D

I don’t have an idea as to when will I meet with her the next time but I am sure that with the new age platforms I will stay connected to the doctor who promised to fix my tooth but never did :D (yeah you know I am a lil mean)

Thank you Mesh for making CBM such a good place to be! On top of it, the wonderful memories that you gave amongst the dooms of finance and accounting idiocies.

All the best for your big day ahead and the amazing future that lies ahead of you and ZT :)

As for the moment, Adieu!

Aaich!

Happy to you, Tee!

Post Category: Diary

2005 it was when we started to interact. Perhaps this is the timeline of my relationships, a little late, always! Ideally we should have started in 2004 but never the less it was a year later.

I cannot exactly recall how? But probably I must have asked you for some insight into a stupid engineering question or you may have asked for some of my notes [not that I was the smart one in town :D ] but I am glad either one of us took the lead.

Fast forward to 2007 when we had the best of times. You introduced me to a couple of other gems and how we ended up doing the most cost effective project in the entire Sir Syed University history. I am sure that this cost effective achievement of ours still stands to date (yeah we did the whole project for a mere 2500 bucks when others when spending around 25000 on the minimum) and not to forget the countless evenings on Bovichic at Muskan and KFC and student biryani’s :P

You are a very good person T! Too good for a person like me. You are one name on my mind who I can always bank upon, no matter what the circumstances are. I am amazed how much you do it for me even when I don’t deserve it.

As you turn the leaf on the age book today, I wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for all the wonderful times that we have shared and the many more that lie ahead of us! Words are meaningless and actions do speak a lot louder than words but still I wish you a very happy birthday and all the very best for the years ahead. 

And as for actions I just heard that Hardees is now open at the back of your house! Do I see some burgers coming our way, tonight? :D

Luv and xoxo, Aaich!

Adrenaline of lost emotions

Post Category: Diary

It’s a strange feeling! You are almost ashamed as Rihanna would say (btw her new single is really kool, nah?!) You know what is wrong and you cannot exactly point out where. Right?


And then when you seek advice you are given ample reasons to retrospect, though not sure, if this self-discovery itself is a good thing or a bad one.

It’s supposed to my life and I should be calling the shots. Things ultimately will change, as change is the only constant (as management gurus would like to reiterate). The uncle in the white robe said 3 moths, 6months and for some rare cases never! Why?? Has he discovered it wrong, did I lie or something else.

Life goes on, or this is what you would like to console yourself with. And then suddenly all the flash back and all the signs! I am convinced that somethings never end, they become immortal only because they were mortal. They go on forever perhaps only because they ended.

Adieu, Aaich!

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Letting it go on this valentines

Today as most individuals will make new pledges, start new relationships, initiate new affairs or renew commitments it’s important that we drop aside the excess emotional luggage that we are carrying from our past associations and finally move on! Let’s get in peace with our associated ex’s and move forward. Let’s make that difficult decision and look to new prospects basking on the horizon.



So whether it was your first spouse, second crush, third best friend or the fourth charm, appreciate the good times spent with them and the fantastic memories that they gave you. Stop drowning yourself from the guilt that they are no longer a part of your life, there are more important onuses seeking your attention. Don’t let the dogma trap you to give them new chances. If it would have meant to be it would have happened.


Get at peace with them today; this can be the biggest love cupid that you can give yourself on this valentine. Letting them go will liberate you and you will always be grateful for this dearest present of yours!


As someone said, love is not an emotion but our very essence! Celebrate the essence and liberate the emotion! Give yourself a tap on the back and embrace the arrival of new sweethearts, hubbies, honeys and beloveds!


For a change today, love yourself before asking someone to present you that red color hope of luv!


Happy valentines :)


- Aaich!