The story of Me and You!

You came the other day and said that you want me to return whatever I have given it to you. I said you cannot but you challenged. I cannot confront back but neither can I deny your request.

Here is the list. Some of them I have to give, some you and some collectively we need to have them back.

The first time I saw you, I was awe struck and mesmerized. To date I don’t get that feeling when I see someone else, please return me that feel.

On the lanes of London you said that you love the royal palace and we went there. Your curiosity is still hovering in Buckingham palace. I want you to take back that curiosity that makes London so special.

In the streets of Paris you told me about your love for perfumes. The shop that we visited and the perfumes you tested. The fragrance of those test runs are still in the air of those shops. They wait to go back with you.

In Murree you got excited by snow and made snow balls and threw at me. Those flakes are still stuck in the moment. I want you to get them out of their limelight.

In Sydney on New Year ’s Eve you were super excited. We celebrated the arrival of the new millennium together at the Sydney Harbor. You lit extinguishers and fireworks. It’s been 11 years and I never had a new year since then. I want you to return me my new year.

In Los Angeles we went to the theater to watch that crappy horror movie. I had shivers down my spine while you laughed it off. To date your laughs and my shivers remain there. I want you to take them back to their deserved place.

In South Africa your love for islands took us to Capetown. I never saw you that excited in my life. Your excitement is still the talk of Capetown. I want you to take the excitement back from the city.

For a long time your bedtime calls were only highlight of my time till you said that you don’t longer want to talk me. I have not slept with peace since the day you abandoned them. I want you to give me back my sleep.

On that October night in Islamabad you looked into my eyes and said is this a dream? I said no and gave you my dreams. From that day and onwards my dreams are with you. I want you to give me back my share of dreams.

In Lahore soon after our kaboolhai, kabool hai you hugged me. Your warmth gave me comfort in that chilly evening. That warmth is still with me, I want to return it to you.

On the cold morning in Moscow you got fascinated by seeing smoke coming out with every breath that you took. That smoke of your breath is still Moscows most prized possession. I want you to take back that gift from them.

Sitting in dunkin donuts, Karachi your lipstick got struck to the coffee mug. That impression is still there. I want you to take it back.

On my birthday we went to the beach in Dubai and walked miles on that sunny May afternoon. Despite numerous waves passing over our footsteps they refused to wash away. I want you to take those magical steps back from Dubai which I believe is the reason of some many people getting excited to that crazy dessert.

The day we parted you slapped me. I was teary eyed and vowed never to smile back again. To date I have not smiled. I want you to give me back my smile.

The last time we met you asked me to get out of your life forever and never to return. I ported out but my heart refused to follow me. I want you to return me my heart.

I am not sure if you can give me what I want or take what I want to give. I never requested you anything but this is my first and only request to you.

 In all these moments with you I did not realize that I never had a life and it was your presence that meant a life to me. I just request you to give me back my life please!

Luv!

Aaich!!!

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Do the due!

It is like treading on the same path over and over again. Knowing that the route is filled with thorns, bushes, barbs and nails. They will rupture, injure, cut, wound and bruise you. Knowing you will fall and crash into pieces. But still you opt not to change the pathway. You end up bursting yourself. Day in day out and weeks flyby but you decide not to change. At the end of this battle you again collect yourself, pump air into a body that is already so damaged that the air refuses to stay and hopelessly aim for another shot wishfully thinking that the lady luck may perhaps finally smile.

Why?? Too scared, childish, unsure or confused?? Why does one don’t let it go? So much for the new person that you inspire to be. Nahee? Is it the child inside that is refusing to grow up? or the bond that refuses to break? What is in this suffering?  Seems like a chess game where the player is not only shrewd but also very clinical and cunning. Why does he/she move and say 'checkmate', signal the end, shut the door and run away. Why are you dragging the innocent, the one who is not really at fault, the one who just happens to be at the right place at a very wrong time.

I request, beg and plead to deliver that knockout blow. Just go ahead and kick in hard. I am sure this short term impact will be way better than a long term effect. I urge you to be ruthless, unkind and selfish. Because if you won’t then i don’t see an end. I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.

It’s easy here. I can do it, but i chose not to. I can opt to win but not at the expense of your loss! So it’s you who have to do it!

and for a change, JUST DO IT!

Aaich!!

Violet enough?

Where do you draw the line? How do you know that your ‘this is it’ moment has arrived? When all is said and done there are resonances in your mind waiting to be unleashed, how do you channelize them or how you keep them buried inside your head?

For long you wait for something to happen and when it finally does why don’t you run and embrace it? Why you just hold back and hope it should have never happened in the first place?

Do good guys always lose? Do trophies go to winners only! Have you ever tested someone only to see if they will pass with flying colors? Have you competed someone by being on their side? Have you ever trashed someone because you want to hear back that they won’t go?

For something that is bound to be factual isn’t it amazing how much excuses reality is made of?  Why, why not, ifs, buts, coulds and shoulds all have no values when that moment arrives. You don’t think nor seek advice, you simply jump off the cliff. If you are lucky to reach the ground safely, great, else you already know that its indigo, indigoing, indigone!

Adieu, Aaich!

Harry meets 'H'

It was long overdue. Quite a while when Harry last met with ‘H’. A lot of water had passed under the bridge. Harry was a changed man and ‘H’ was happy at taking the back seat. After all for 26 years ‘H’ waited for Harry to take on the baton to the next stage in the evolution.


They shared the routine sentiments of meeting after a long time. Harry was nervous and embarrassed as if he has done something wrong while ‘H’ still had the ultimate charming smile, plus, not for a moment did he pass a rude remark to make Harry uncomfortable.

Harry: I missed you a lot, ‘H’ (Harry is teary eyed)
‘H’: Awww (‘H’ trying to mellow down the emotions)


So wats up? Harry inquires!
Nothing much, the usual ‘H’ response.


Wat have you been upto? (‘H’ inquires)
Harry: A lot of stuff actually. New workplace, new college and a lot of new things.

Great! You like continuous change, replies ‘H’.
Um, yeah but not now! I think I need to slow down. This is not I thought of. (Harry is getting senti)


‘H’: so wat did you think of?
Harry: I don’t know.


‘H’: but still?
Harry: Can you come back and take the lead?


H: Why? This change is something that you wanted really badly.
Harry: Yeah, but I don’t think I need it now.


H: Wat you don’t require?
Harry: I am clueless. I don’t know


H: Have you heard this? I've slowed down and taken a backseat and I'm watching other people's lives zoom pass while I stand motionless in time. It's pretty amazing when you view the world from a different angle. Not everything is good in life, but not everything is bad either. I've learnt that I cannot change the world, and the world will not change for me. (‘H’ shares a quote)


Harry: Your luv for these is still there :)
H: Yeah! :)


H: Why don’t you apply this quote to yourself? You just need to change the perspective.
Harry: What should I do? In a conflict within self who wins, H?


H: See that the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love you, well, that's just fabulous. Naah?


Harry: Yeah you are right!
H: Let it go! Be who you really want to be! Stop sweating on the small stuff.

Harry: Can the thing between the two get back to what it was?
H: For me it never changed. It’s still the same :)


Harry: Can I say something? And you know this, right?!
H: Wat?
Harry: That I…….
H: Yeah! You don’t need to say it.


Harry: Thanks for everything!
H: You don’t have to.


Harry: I will catch you later then?
H: Sure thing!

*Hugs* and both depart!

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‘Harry’ and ‘H’ are fictitious characters. One represents the mind (logical) and other the heart (emotional). Aaich leaves at your discretion as to who is the logical and who is the emotional in this blog.

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Retrospect!

There comes a time when you have to reflect,

when you've to think of all that seemed right,

and all that went wrong

The bets you made,

the battles you fought,

the friends you had,

and the ones you lost

Life comes with a silver spoon,

but it takes with a broken hand

It shows you a direction,

but the path is yours to take.

Lets see where are you heading my friend!

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